Friday, December 20, 2024
Today (Saturday Dec 14th, I got news my Dad passed away,
While it was not a completely unexpected call, I was still taken for an emotional ride I was not ready to take (who is?). I won't have the opportunity publicly to say what I want to say, so I will write some thought here, forgive me I’m NOT real good at sharing how I feel.
My dad and I were close – it wasn’t always like that, when I was young, I wanted to be just like him, when I was a teenager, I’m surprised he didn’t “kill me” I was not a pleasant teenager or young adult or even a older adult.
Dad never once hit me, rarely yelled at me, but would show his disappointment in his eyes – that still hurts to this day.
My dad ALWAYS got me out of trouble, from hiring lawyers to helping me finally get sober and on an on and on, he never gave up on me.
He didn’t really know how to say I love you – I also struggle with that. I knew he loved me though, for him actions were louder than words. He wasn’t perfect, like all of us he made mistakes, owned up to them and tried to be a better human being. Love is an action, not a feeling!
My dad was a community champion in every community he lived, I have tried to live up that myself, I’m going to try harder.
While life didn’t allow us to get together often over the past 20 years, we soke on the phone often, we talked about really nothing and I always felt better afterwards.
Cynthia Williams my beautiful wife and Dakota our son who is my pride and joy have fond memories of the brief time we had to spent together with him at his cabin @ Burgiss Beach, It is my shortcoming that prevented us from doing more of that in the past 10 years.
My dads body was tired, it was his time to go home!
I always wanted to be just like my dad, he was my role model – I miss him, I love him and its hard to say goodbye.
